Nobody sees me full

[Verse 1]

I wake up tired from a night I barely slept
Another morning with a pain that hasn’t left
I paint a smile on a face that’s wearing thin
And tell the world I’m fine before the day begins

They see me laughing, they think I’m doing well
But there’s a thousand things I never, ever tell
I watch them living like it’s easy just to breathe
While I’m fighting battles nobody can see

And I don’t want their pity
I just wanna feel alive
I wanna wake up one morning
And not have to fight to survive

[Pre-Chorus]

So I push a little harder
Even when my body screams
I’m just trying to live a normal life
Like everybody else but me

And when my strength is running out
I find a little more somehow

[Chorus]

But nobody sees me fall
Nobody hears me cry
Nobody knows how many times
I’ve had to tell myself to try

I break down when the lights go out
I wipe my tears before the dawn
I put myself back together
And pretend there’s nothing wrong

I’m fighting just to keep up
While they’re running through it all
And everybody calls me strong
But nobody sees me fall

[Verse 2]

I’ve learned to hide the shaking in my hands
To smile through things that no one understands
I push myself beyond what I should bear
Then fall apart when nobody is there

They say you look so good, you must be doing fine
If only they could see the war inside my mind
The plans I’ve had to cancel, all the things I’ve missed
The life I keep on chasing that I can’t quite reach

And sometimes I get angry
Sometimes I wonder why
Why does just being normal
Have to cost me half my life?

[Pre-Chorus]

I give a hundred when I’ve only got ten
I fall apart and start again
And even when I know I need to rest
I keep on pushing past what’s left

‘Cause I don’t wanna be the one
Who always has to say I can’t

[Chorus]

But nobody sees me fall
Nobody hears me cry
Nobody knows how many times
I’ve had to tell myself to try

I break down when the lights go out
I wipe my tears before the dawn
I put myself back together
And pretend there’s nothing wrong

I’m fighting just to keep up
While they’re running through it all
And everybody calls me strong
But nobody sees me fall

[Bridge – Soft piano, fragile vocals]

And I’m so tired
God, I’m so tired

Not the kind that sleep can fix
Not the kind that goes away
I’m tired of pretending
That I’m okay every day

I’m tired of being brave
When all I wanna do is cry
I’m tired of saying I’m alright
When I’m barely getting by

And sometimes I sit alone
With my head between my knees
Crying over all the things
This illness takes from me

But I don’t tell my family
And I don’t tell my friends
‘Cause I don’t know how to explain
A pain that never ends

[Emotional Build – Voice breaking]

I don’t need someone to save me
I don’t need them to understand it all
I just wish that once somebody knew
How much it hurts to stand this tall

I’m tired of fighting
I’m tired of pain
I’m tired of waking up
And doing it all again

I JUST WANNA BE NORMAL
IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK?

I wanna live without pretending
I wanna stop wearing this mask

[Sudden Silence – Whispered]

But tomorrow
I’ll smile again

And nobody
Will know a thing

[Final Chorus – Powerful, emotional vocals]

’Cause nobody sees me fall
Nobody hears me cry
They only see the girl who smiles
Not the one who hurts inside

They don’t see the nights I’m shaking
Or the tears I hide away
They don’t know how hard I’m fighting
Just to make it through the day

I push myself past breaking
I give more than I’ve got
And when my body begs for mercy
I pretend that it does not

And maybe I’m not fearless
Maybe I’m not strong at all
Maybe I’m just someone
Who’s learned to rise each time I fall

[Outro – Soft piano fading]

Tomorrow I’ll get dressed again
And wear that same old smile
I’ll tell them that I’m doing fine
And make it one more mile

But tonight I’ll let the tears come
I won’t pretend at all

’Cause even though nobody sees it

I still get up

Every time I fall