The Grace I Couldn’t Give Myself

[Verse 1]
Verse 1
I used to point my fingers
At the people standing near
Build a wall of their mistakes
So I wouldn’t face my fear
I had reasons for my anger
Had excuses for my pride
I could name a thousand wrongs in them
But hide the ones inside

[Verse 2]
I called it being wounded
I called it being strong
But somewhere in the silence
I knew I’d been wrong
I was so busy keeping score
Of every scar they left
I never stopped to wonder
What I was doing with the rest

[Chorus]
Chorus
And You saw me through it all
Every lie I told myself
You didn’t turn Your face away
You knew me better than I knew myself
You gave me grace when I had none
Loved me when I came undone
When I was too ashamed to pray
You met me there and stayed
You forgave what I couldn’t erase
Now I’m learning to live in grace

[Verse 3]
Verse 2
I’ve worn my guilt like clothing
Let it follow where I go
Replayed a thousand moments
That I wish I didn’t know
I’ve said things out of anger
I’ve let my pride decide
And blamed the world around me
For the battles deep inside

[Chorus]
Chorus
And You saw me through it all
Every lie I told myself
You didn’t turn Your face away
You knew me better than I knew myself
You gave me grace when I had none
Loved me when I came undone
When I was too ashamed to pray
You met me there and stayed
You forgave what I couldn’t erase
Now I’m learning to live in grace

[Verse 4]
Bridge
Maybe growing isn’t forgetting
Maybe healing isn’t clean
Maybe grace is telling the truth
About the person I have been
If You can see me at my worst
And still call me by my name
Who am I to keep on punishing
The soul You chose to save?

[Verse 5]
Final Chorus
You gave me grace when I had none
Loved me when I came undone
You never said I wouldn’t fall
Just showed me I could face it all
I’m learning I can take responsibility
Without losing all compassion for me
I can’t undo the things I’ve done
But I’m still becoming who I’ll become

[Verse 6]
Outro
I’m not who I was
But I’m not there yet
I’m learning to forgive
What I can’t forget

[Verse 7]
You never asked me to be perfect
You just asked me to be real
And maybe grace is more than something I receive
Maybe it’s something
I can finally give myself.