Can’t Cry Yet

Verse 1

I heard the news, and something broke
But I don't know what it was
I stood there trying to understand
How you could be gone from us

I keep thinking I could call your name
And somehow you'd answer me
But now there's six feet of earth between us
And you're farther than I can reach

I can't believe you're lying there
So quiet underneath the ground
How can someone I loved all my life
Be somewhere I can't find them now?

Pre-Chorus

And I've been running for years
Trying to get close to you
But now I've come all this way
And there's nothing I can do

I would give anything
Just to hear your voice again
But the road ends here tonight
And I don't know where it begins

Chorus

I can't cry yet
But God, I miss you
It's like my heart is screaming
But my eyes don't know what to do

You're six feet under
And I'm still standing here
Trying to reach somebody
Who I know can't hear

I can't touch you
I can't hold you
I can't turn back time
I can't believe the person I loved
Is now a memory in my mind

And I don't know how to say goodbye
So I'll just say your name
Until these tears finally find me
And I can feel the pain

Verse 2

They say the days will make it easier
But tonight that feels like a lie
'Cause every little thing reminds me
And I don't know how to say goodbye

Your face keeps living in my memories
Your voice keeps playing in my head
And everybody's moving forward
While I'm wishing you weren't dead

I keep looking at that empty space
Like maybe you'll walk through the door
But the silence keeps reminding me
That you're not coming home anymore

Pre-Chorus

And I would've stayed there longer
If I knew it was our last time
I would've held you a little tighter
I would've memorized your eyes

Now all I have are memories
And words I never got to say
So if love could reach the heavens
I'd send mine to you today

Chorus

I can't cry yet
But God, I miss you
It's like my heart is screaming
But my eyes don't know what to do

You're six feet under
And I'm still standing here
Trying to reach somebody
Who I know can't hear

I can't touch you
I can't hold you
I can't turn back time
I can't believe the person I loved
Is now a memory in my mind

And I don't know how to say goodbye
So I'll just say your name
Until these tears finally find me
And I can feel the pain

Bridge

Maybe this is grief
Maybe this is what it means
To lose somebody you love
And still expect them in your dreams

Maybe tomorrow I'll break
Maybe tonight I'll stay numb
Maybe I'll finally let myself cry
When my heart understands you're gone

But if you can hear me
Wherever you are
I hope you know I loved you
I hope you know you left a mark

And if heaven has a doorway
I'd run until I reached you
'Cause six feet might be deep
But it will never be far enough
To stop me missing you

Final Chorus

I can't cry yet
But God, I'm trying
I'm holding all this sadness
And I don't know where to put it

You're six feet under
But you're still here in me
In every little memory
In everything you taught me to be

I wish I could hold you
I wish I could say goodbye
I wish I could tell you
How much I loved you while you were alive

And maybe when the tears come
I'll finally understand
That losing you doesn't mean losing
Every piece of you I have

Outro

So sleep peacefully, Grandma
I'm sorry I can't cry yet
My heart hasn't caught up
With what my eyes have seen yet

But I miss you...

God, I miss you...