The Grace I Couldn’t Give Myself

But hide the ones inside

I called it being wounded
I called it being strong
But somewhere in the silence
I knew I’d been wrong
I was so busy keeping score
Of every scar they left
I never stopped to wonder
What I was doing with the rest

Chorus
And You saw me through it all
Every lie I told myself
You didn’t turn Your face away
You knew me better than I knew myself
You gave me grace when I had none
Loved me when I came undone
When I was too ashamed to pray
You met me there and stayed
You forgave what I couldn’t erase
Now I’m learning to live in grace

Verse 2
I’ve worn my guilt like clothing
Let it follow where I go
Replayed a thousand moments
That I wish I didn’t know
I’ve said things out of anger
I’ve let my pride decide
And blamed the world around me
For the battles deep inside

Chorus
And You saw me through it all
Every lie I told myself
You didn’t turn Your face away
You knew me better than I knew myself
You gave me grace when I had none
Loved me when I came undone
When I was too ashamed to pray
You met me there and stayed
You forgave what I couldn’t erase
Now I’m learning to live in grace

Bridge
Maybe growing isn’t forgetting
Maybe healing isn’t clean
Maybe grace is telling the truth
About the person I have been
If You can see me at my worst
And still call me by my name
Who am I to keep on punishing
The soul You chose to save?

Final Chorus
You gave me grace when I had none
Loved me when I came undone
You never said I wouldn’t fall
Just showed me I could face it all
I’m learning I can take responsibility
Without losing all compassion for me
I can’t undo the things I’ve done
But I’m still becoming who I’ll become

Outro
I’m not who I was
But I’m not there yet
I’m learning to forgive
What I can’t forget

You never asked me to be perfect
You just asked me to be real
And maybe grace is more than something I receive
Maybe it’s something
I can finally give myself.