MONSTER VENOM

How did the sound of laughter change to silence....... **And the echo kept laughing in your place** **I thought the laugh was a house, but it was a door** **And the place that was warm became a wall** Didn't you say it was unique? **You were describing her as if she was unlike any other** **Then you said her name as if you were erasing it** You knew all the answers - Where is she now? **Where is the sentence that reassured me** **Where is the face that did not change the subject** It seems that you have played enough and have left me now **The game does not end when you are bored, it ends when you are afraid** **You played with safety as if it were a piece of paper** **And when the card fell, you lost me with it** **You did not say goodbye, you left the chair empty** **And an empty chair is crueler than any exit** You changed the subject and your features changed **Your face preceded your tongue into the lie** **The laughter fell from your eyes before Your mouth** **You started talking with your eyes on the door** Why did you do this to me? **Do I have to reach the end of the road** **So that I know that you are walking from the first step** Did you intend to do this from the beginning, or did someone control you? **If it is someone else's hand--why does the handwriting look like yours** **And if it is your hand, do not hide behind someone else** **Control is a cold excuse** **And you have not been warm from the beginning** Don't change the subject You know exactly why I'm here **I didn't come to hear a new story** **I came to take you back to the sentence you escaped from** You can act---but not on me **Image for someone who has not seen you up close** **I saw you before you straightened your face** **I saw the trembling, I saw the stroke** **I saw the name falling between two letters** They said that it is not possible to break a heart that did not beat, but you did it with all simplicity **frightening simplicity** **as if it were a habit, no mistake** You have no feelings at all **So how did your voice tremble for a name you do not have** **If there is no heart, then why did you fear my absence** **And if there was a heart, why do you pretend to be a stone** I will show you how I will make your heart bleed for the longing of losing me **Longing without Name, this is the hardest bleeding** **I will not scream, for the screaming is forgotten** **I will be absent, and absence returns every night** **Whenever you extend your hand, you find the place empty** **And whenever you call out, your echo alone returns to you** Take your step and now wait for your fate **Your fate is not a punishment from me** **Your fate is to wake up and not find me** **And to search for a laugh that no longer has a friend** You can hide, you can hide the signs **Hide the messages, hide the look** **Hide the day you changed your face** You can make excuses for sure **An excuse for sleep, an excuse for silence, and an excuse for a name** **Excuses are many, but the truth is one** **The light preserves your acting, and the darkness preserves no one** **In the light a half smile is enough for you** **In the darkness the face appears as it is** But when the lights go out - you will see who will excel in the end **Not the loudest** **But the one who will remain when the trick is over** I spoke a lot, then I spoke a little **A lot of talk is a cover** **And only a few people laughed** Your story has changed. Another lie and another mistake **Yesterday you were the hero, today you are the victim** **And tomorrow you will find a third role** Listen to the hesitation of your voice before you speak **As if the word is afraid of the next one** **Hesitation is not shyness** **Hesitation is a balance, and you know that the word is heavy** You think I didn’t notice??? **I noticed the first time you changed your seat** **I noticed when my name started to fall behind in your sentences** **I noticed the distance before you became a door** Don’t ask me about what I know and don’t ask me about what I don’t know **If you ask, I answer you with silence** **And this silence is more knowledgeable than you and me** The distance between your words reveals more than what you mean to say **The silence between letter and letter was a confession** **You used to say the sentence and swallow the last of it** **And the last of it was always a noun** **You can say all the rest** **To twist, turn, and change the story** **But the name you deleted** **He was the one who was holding everything in place** Three little words ---- One name is missing. Nothing will remain as it was.