Something I Can’t Control

[Verse 1 — quiet, intimate vocal; clean electric guitar]

I never came here looking for a reason to stay,
Never meant to let anything get in my way.
My world was simple, I had nothing to prove,
Everything in its place, nothing left to lose.

Then you walked in and disturbed the silence,
Like you could hear through all of my defences.
Now I catch myself looking for you everywhere,
In all the places I swore I wouldn't care.

[Pre-Chorus — tension slowly building]

I don't know what you see when you look at me,
Don't know if you feel what I can't make believe.
But something in the way you say my name
Makes it harder to pretend I'm still the same.

[Chorus — explosive guitars, gritty and emotional vocals]

You're becoming something I can't control,
Getting too close to the parts I never show.
I keep telling myself it's nothing, just a spark,
But I lose every word when you call me in the dark.

And I don't know if I should stay or run,
Don't recognize the man that I've become.
All I know is when you're standing next to me,
I'm afraid of who I might become if you love me.

You're becoming something I can't hold…
God, I don't know how to let you go.

[Verse 2 — heavier rhythm, restrained intensity]

It's strange how the air changes when you're around,
You never even notice how you turn me upside down.
You talk, I listen, try to hide the way I feel,
Then replay every word to see if any of it was real.

I guess I'm not the easiest man to read,
A little distant, not used to giving my heart away.
You never even noticed how deep you've gotten in,
And I don't know how to keep you from getting under my skin.

[Pre-Chorus 2 — rising frustration, drums building]

I could find a thousand reasons to leave,
Kill the spark before there's anything to grieve.
I could bury myself in the work that I do,
Call it duty, not the fear of letting someone through.

But every road I take to get away
Somehow brings me back to you again.
And I hate that I can't figure out
If I'm afraid of love—or what it's all about.

[Chorus — bigger drums, layered backing vocals]

You're becoming something I can't control,
Getting too close to the parts I never show.
I keep telling myself it's nothing, just a spark,
But I lose every word when you call me in the dark.

And I don't know if I should stay or run,
Don't recognize the man that I've become.
All I know is when you're standing next to me,
I'm afraid of who I might become if you love me.

You're becoming something I can't hold…
God, I don't know how to let you go.

[Bridge — instruments drop out; almost whispered, breaking vocal]

You don't know.

You don't even have a clue
What you do to me.

You smile…
And I forget everything
I swore I'd never want again.

You reach for me…

And I forget to pull away.

[Pause. A shaky breath.]

And you know what scares me the most?

It's not that you'll leave.

It's that someday…

I'll be the one who begs you to stay.

[Final Chorus — full band, raw vocals, maximum intensity]

You're becoming something I can't control!
I'm losing the ground I've been guarding for so long!
I built my world so no one could get through,
Now every road I take leads back to you!

And I don't know if I'm ready to fall,
If I've got the nerve to risk it all.
I've spent so long keeping my heart behind these walls…

Now they're coming down—and you've barely touched my soul!

You're becoming something I can't hold!
And I don't know how to let you go!

[Outro — exhausted, raspy whisper over a lone guitar]

You don't know.

You don't even realize.

And maybe…

That's the only reason
I can still stand here.

[One final ringing guitar chord. Silence.]